Over the last few days I have felt a sense of unease. As I attempted to identify the problem I thought about several things, and after 2-3 days I've come to some answers.
Walk away from your crutches, even though its your best buddy
I am lucky enough to have a good best friend in San Diego. However, it is crucial that you know when you have to walk your own path. Quite often, we lean on the shoulders of the others, and in the process, forget to learn that which we ought to learn how to do ourselves. For example, I am constantly hanging out with him, and we play video games. This is great fun, but recently after our LA trip I have felt a sense of waste after enjoying games. I uninstalled my epodryw.pl Heroes of the Storm bnet account and now I have a lot more spare time in my hands. So the lesson is, learn when you need to come up with your strength, and also have the courage to walk away from your very best friend. He/she will know, that you need time to yourself to develop inner strength.
I've also discovered that my daytime pick up skills are better, and that I tend to do much better in my. From time to time, you need to go out there and watch the world for yourself, rather than resenting others for"holding you back", when in fact, you are the one which's doing it!
Viewing the silver lining in everything
As a kid, I used to think that if I am learning the piano in the afternoon, all of the other kids are out there playing in the golden sunset! No! I felt a sense of loss! Yet, now, I'm grateful on a few nights when I could just be in the office and work to my heart content. Just me and my job. Occasionally I might feel like that is lonely and it is, but that's the way it is for today, and I have learned to view it as a boon, I get to hangout with my friends when I need to, and possess my own time without being stressed by work or personal obligations.
Being cool with no"trying"
I have leverage the capability to be present thanks to Ekhart Tolle and I have noticed that when I am relaxed and unstressed, I have an open vibe. People today talk to me personally. "What's that you're buying?" I think that on weekdays, because so many individuals are worried, an unstressed, open energy contrasts nicely in contrast to all the pent up energy that people see everyday. I am fortunate enough to have financial freedom at this point in my entire life, and that I will continue to station a cool, open vibe, even though I'm working hard at work. When we judge others, in some ways we are also dealing with our own demons. This is perhaps one of the universal truths of all religions (which has been killed off by religious dogma). Your own presence of light is sufficient -- that alone can sustain you and put in love to the entire world. Sometimes our self gets in the way, and we out of the flicker and magnificent of what's there to begin with.
Strive for the finest, decision Absolutely Free of others I realized now this is the wrong way to look at the world. Everyone is in their journey. In a lot of ways, my negativity towards them was really at myself -- at my own inability to make things work. I must have sought out help sooner, or recognized that I had to meet new people, instead of resenting my pals. You can not always change someone, however you can always adore them.
It's ok to be an asshole, sometimes our mistakes instruct us the way to arrive at the right solution Or reach a stage of acceptance, I needed to go through pain. The pain helps you get to a point (hopefully) of throwing away the bags of the self.
Intimate relationships, enjoy all the life has to offer you. Drink from the fountain
While I used to go for the hottest women, I want the deepest connections in all areas of my life. Am I still drawn to beautiful ladies? Absolutely. But my fascination now is more than only a physical one. I find myself losing attraction for shallow beauty, and much more in tune with inner beauty.
I am still attracted sexually to superficial beauty, but in terms of my connections as well as an-ongoing type of situation, I see myself valuing a beautiful woman with great inner qualities too.