Over the past few days I've felt a sense of unease. My subconscious is aware of it too -- I've been having weird dreams that left me waking up in a bad mood. As I attempted to identify the issue I thought about many things, and after 2-3 days I have come to some replies.
Walk away from the crutches, even if its your Very Best buddy
First, I am fortunate enough to have a good companion in San Diego. However, it's important that you be aware of when you have to walk your path. Quite often, we lean on the shoulders of the others, and in the process, neglect to learn what we should learn to do ourselves. For example, I'm constantly hanging out with himand we play video games. This really is excellent fun, but recently after our LA trip I've felt a sense of waste after playing games. So I uninstalled my Heroes of the Storm bnet accounts and I have a lot more free time in my hands. So the lesson is, find out if you have to come up with your own strength, and also have the courage to walk away from the best friend. He/she will understand, that you will need time to yourself to develop inner strength.
I've also learned that my daytime pick up skills are better, and that I tend to do better in my. From time to time, you have to go out there and see the world for yourself, rather than resenting others for"holding you back", when in actuality, you're the one which's doing it!
Viewing the silver lining in all
For a kid, I used to believe that when I am studying the piano in the afternoon, all the other children are out there playing in the golden sunset! No! I felt a sense of loss! Yet, now, I'm grateful on a few nights when I can just be at work and function to my heart content. Only me and my job. Occasionally I might feel like this is lonely and perhaps it is, but that's how it's for today, and I have learned to view it as a boon, I get to hangout with my friends when I want to, and possess my own time without being stressed by work or personal duties.
Being trendy with no"trying"
I've leverage the capability to be present thanks to Ekhart Tolle and I've noticed that when I am relaxed and unstressedI have a open vibe. People talk to me. "What is that you're purchasing?" "Hey this elevator is slow huh?" I believe that on weekdays, because so many individuals are stressed, an unstressed, open energy translates well compared to all of the pent up energy that people see everyday. I'm fortunate enough to have financial freedom at this stage in my entire life, and I will continue to channel a chill, open vibe, even if I am working hard at work. When we judge others, in certain ways we're also dealing with our own demons. This is perhaps one of the universal truths of all religions (which has been murdered by religious dogma). Your own presence of light is enough -- that alone could sustain you and add love to the world. Sometimes our ego gets in the way, and blinds us from the flicker and magnificent of what's there to start with.
Strive for the best, judgement czy ona mnie zdradza Absolutely Free of others I understood this is the wrong way to look at the world. Everyone is on their own journey. In a lot of ways, my negativity towards them was really at myself -- at my inability to make things work. I must have sought out aid earlier, or acknowledged that I had to meet new people, rather than resenting my pals. You can't always change someone, however you can always love them.
It's okay to be an asshole, occasionally our mistakes instruct us how to arrive at the Ideal solution
In order for me to "find peace".
Or reach a stage of approval, I had to go through pain. The pain helps you get to a point (ideally ) of throwing away the bags of their self.
Intimate relationships, savor all of the life has to offer you.
While I used to select the hottest girls, I now want the deepest connections in all areas of my own life. Am I still drawn to beautiful ladies? Absolutely. However, my fascination now is more than only a physical one. I find myself losing charm for shallow beauty, and much more in tune with internal beauty.
I'm still drawn sexually to superficial beauty, but in terms of my relationships and an-ongoing kind of situation, I see myself valuing a gorgeous girl with great inner qualities as well.